she taught me, " smiled Cecilia, "how to relax. Between
scenes Garbo always retires to her dressing-room or sits on the sidelines
watching, relaxed in every nerve and muscle. "
can't ever be like Garbo physically," said Cecilia regretfully, "even
though I did resemble her enough to play her sister. I do have almost
exactly the same coloring, though. I have gray eyes and so has she. We
have the same shade of pale brown hair. Our skin is much the same in tone
and texture. People tell me we have something of the same quality in our
voices. I am short whereas she is tall.
Even though I can't look much like her, I can try to be like her inside, and I do. I know that I sound like a Garbo fan. Well, I am a Garbo fan. Of course, being a Garbo fan means loving and admiring Garbo and only by intense admiration are we ever stirred enough to try to be like the object of our admiration.
I know that I've lost all temptation to copy or imitate anyone. What I am trying to do is to be as honest in my work and in my personal life as Garbo is in hers, to have in my own way the same integrity and courage she has in hers.
She taught me not be afraid of anything - not even humdrum practical truths about oneself. I'm a good cook, for instance. When I'm not working I keep house for my mother, my brother and myself. A few weeks ago a director called me from the studio and asked me to come over for an interview. He said, "Are you busy? What are you doing?" I told him I was scrubbing the kitchen floor. He thought he hadn't heard me right! Well, there was a time when I wouldn't have admitted to this. I would've thought that a movie actress shouldn't let it out that she even knows there are floors to be scrubbed and meals to be cooked. But Garbo would admit the practical truths about herself, I'm sure of that - she would never be ashamed of any honest work she did, no matter what.
"But for yourself?" this interviewer asked Cecilia. "You don't really want to live the solitary life of Garbo, certainly? Doesn't love enter into your scheme of things? Don't you want marriage and babies and a home?"
"Of course I do," Cecilia said. "I want children more than I want anything else. I want to marry and have a home. I'd gladly give up my career for home and marriage if those things come to me... I hope things work out happily and successfully for me. If they don't, I hope I will have learned from Garbo to take loneliness with courage, and heartbreak with dignity."